Sexist, ignorant minds.

So. Basically. What annoys me so much how ignorant and sexist people can be regarding everything, especially when it come to the naked body.

Males are allowed to do as they wish, they can show off what they have and it's okay... But females? It isn't allowed. It really fucking pisses me off. Don't be so sexist, ignorant and judgemental...

Everyone who has me on social media knows that I tend to post my body. And then ASSUME that I'm a slag, who sleep around etc, etc... Just seriously fuck off. Ignorant. I don't sleep around. If you really must know it's almost the 7th month of the year and I have had sex only three times. Males piss me off how they think with their dick!

Yesterday I had two males tell me how I don't deserve a decent male because I post my body. My response they get blocked. Of course I deserve a decent bloke. It isn't my fault they don't fucking exist! Or if they do they don't want me!

I do not post my body for attention or 'likes'... Another thing STUPID IGNORANT idiots ASSUME. I post it because I am proud of how fucking much weight I have lost, and how good my body still is even though I can't really work out now because of my illness. Who wouldn't be proud of that?!

It isn't my fault I don't want to fuck you males, so you decide to troll me. Or you females are jealous because you have no fucking balls to post what I do.

Fuck you haters. Fuck you ignorant, sexist, narrow-minded fools.

Times are changing. Females should not be fucking terrorised because they are proud, or be told that they deserve to have noone, or deserve to be treated like shit because of it.

If that is the case then you males don't deserve shit either.

Equality, fools. Grow up.

Weight Loss.

For people who struggle losing weight or blame the fact they can't lose weight because they can't afford the surgery is just utter bullshit. It's just all about not giving into junk food and training yourself not to be so hungry to the point of ober feeding yourself! Unless of course you have a thyroid problem, then you do have an excuse.

You just have to have your heart actually into losing weight. Take it from me. I was chubby when I was with my ex. We split up, and I lost 2 stone. I'm so proud of thAt. I'm also proud of the fact I managed to keep it off. And I can't even work out anymore. As I used to work out every day, plus working 6 days a week, and eat healthily. But now. My illness has fucked me over and all I do now is eat healthy as I can to keep that weight loss off. I'll be damned if ai become chubby again.

I'm still not 100% happy. But what girl is happy unless rich, or famous to get surgery tp sort the problems they have... But yeah I guess I'm happier than when I was chubby. I never ever want to be chubby again. Or be bigger. Some people are happy with that, but I really am not. Curves and slim, just how I am.

Vic Mensa.

You know, when I saw Vic Mensa at Wireless a few years back I didn't even know who he was (shamefully). I still didn't even know after I left the place. It took a few months to see him have released some music, then it all clicked together... I listened to every song, except 'down on my luck (sorry Vic, but too dancy for me), got the mixtape, and my love for him grew and grew, and now he is one of my favourites.

Not many people from were I live have a clue who he is,but that's because were I am they're all chavs who listen to shit music and don'r appreciate brilliant music. Honestly, I feel like the only non sheep around here. I like who I like, and Vic is one of those artists.

He's been slow as bringing out music though... The album was supposed to be last year, but now it's this year... And I am just excited.

The new EP 'There's alot going on' has made me even more excited, and this mixtape is blowing up in America! And with me of course... And probably with a lot of people who appreciate good music in England outside of were I live! It's a deep EP. I'd say. And it'll probably be on repeat for me for a while... I just really cannot wait for this album!

You still owe me a free show Vic if you come over here... Since you did say so when I got the Save Money tattoo! I now have three Vic Mensa related tattoos... Save Money, the lyrics 'I don't need ya'll either' from U Mad, then I copied his 'opinions' tattoo... I do want more Vic Mensa related ink, but it's so expensive tattoos... I will eventually get there though, I swear!

If you do read this Vic. Do me a favour? Make my dream come true and collaborate with Kanye and Kid Cudi on the same track?! That would be fire. Alot of people know it. Alot of people want it. It's just I want it a hell of a lot more since you're all my faves!

I'm excited for future projects and music from Vic. He is one talented artist. Watch this space.

Weakness.

I'm normally a really strong person... But when it comes to love, romance and relationships my head falls off... All I want is my happy ending with someone, but males seem to be absolute retarded cheating unloyal lying cunts and they really fuck me off... I deserve to be happy for once. I deserve to be loved back rather than only me being the one to love...

Recently I waited for someone, it actually looked promising. Then I see his ex who is plastered in all of his photos on Facebook liking and commenting on his recent posts. And from what I knew they weren't talking. So I asked and his excuse that they 'are good mates'

What bullshit.

It's a repeat, he's totally rekindling that romancw... I know it. And alot of people have pretty much said it's obvious. Just like when he hid me, ignored me, all because he wanted others.

It makes me question myself. And ask... Will I ever be fucking good enough? Or will I always face this heartbreak and my head being fucked over?

When you miss someone.

Before you assume I mean exes or shitty males... Then no.
I miss certain friends who were in my life but left. Like everyone does.
I genuinly have never have a proper best friend. I mean if I really I had... They wouldn't of left, right?!

God knows. But I miss those friends. Certain ones. I have actually tried to reach out to certain ones, and I just got blanked, so I guess it's a good thing that I left them. Or they left me. But yeah. I don't need fake people... I really don't.

I'm better off being lonely and alone than having fake and sly snaked in my life...

I have so many random thoughts. It's good that I blog this shit. I never ever want to burden anyone with what I feel... Besides the ones who I have... Tended to... Yeah, leave. I swear I am cursed yk never be happy and have every fucker leave my life...

Where is my happiness?